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They Can't Kill Us Until They Kill Us by Hanif Abdurraqib (Two Dollar Radio)

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They Can't Kill Us Until They Kill Us (Ebook)

a collection of essays by
Hanif Abdurraqib

$ 8.99 $ 10.99


They Can't Kill Us Until They Kill Us by Hanif Abdurraqib

* All author proceeds from Jul–Nov 2019 were donated to Border Network for Human Rights and Trans Women Of Color Collective, matched by up to $2000 by the author.
* All author proceeds for direct sales during the month of July 2018, matched by Two Dollar Radio, were donated to AL OTRO LADO.
* All author proceeds for direct sales during the months of Dec 2018–Jan 2019 to STAR HOUSE COLUMBUS.

*2018 "12 best books to give this holiday season" TODAY (Elizabeth Acevedo)
*Best Books of 2018 Rolling Stone 
*Best Books of 2017 
—NPR, BuzzfeedPaste MagazineEsquireChicago Tribune, Vol. 1 Brooklyn, CBC (Canada), Stereogum, National Post (Canada), Entropy, Heavy, Book Riot, Chicago Review of Books (November), The Los Angeles ReviewMichigan Daily
*American Booksellers Association (ABA) 'December 2017 Indie Next List Great Reads'
*Midwest Indie Bestseller

“A much-needed collection for our time. [Abdurraqib] has proven to be one of the most essential voices of his generation.”
—Juan Vidal, NPR

"From his analysis of racism in Ohio mosh pits to his account of attending a Springsteen concert after visiting Michael Brown's memorial in Ferguson, Abdurraqib represents a bold new voice in socio-music criticism."
O, The Oprah Magazine


In an age of confusion, fear, and loss, Hanif Abdurraqib's is a voice that matters. Whether he's attending a Bruce Springsteen concert the day after visiting Michael Brown's grave, or discussing public displays of affection at a Carly Rae Jepsen show, he writes with a poignancy and magnetism that resonates profoundly.

In the wake of the nightclub attacks in Paris, he recalls how he sought refuge as a teenager in music, at shows, and wonders whether the next generation of young Muslims will not be afforded that opportunity now. While discussing the everyday threat to the lives of Black Americans, Abdurraqib recounts the first time he was ordered to the ground by police officers: for attempting to enter his own car.

In essays that have been published by the New York Times, MTV, and Pitchfork, among others—along with original, previously unreleased essays—Abdurraqib uses music and culture as a lens through which to view our world, so that we might better understand ourselves, and in so doing proves himself a bellwether for our times.


Scroll to bottom for Goodreads reviews.

"A breathtaking collection of largely music-focused essays by Hanif Abdurraqib... Rhythmic repetition makes for roaring passages that beg to be read aloud, but for all his poetic muscularity, Abdurraqib understands the value of linguistic economy... In essays dealing with historical figures, long-winded reveries are punctuated by moments of shattering empathy... The struggle between anguish and hope, between a well-impacted cynicism and the optimism needed to face another day underscores nearly every essay."
—The Washington Post

"The Ohio poet/critic digs deep into what it means to be American in our moment — and how much music has to do with it."
Rolling Stone, The Best Music Books of 2018

"Abdurraqib writes about the music he holds dear, and the experiences which have embedded this music in his life, with such lyricism that the writing nears music itself—and his love of the subject is palpable."
Buzzfeed, Best Nonfiction Books Of 2017

"Hanif Abdurraqib explores America through its popular culture. The emo bands, rappers, and Bruce Springsteen all offer him an opportunity to look at larger issues. He does it in such a way that... gives us hope for the future of the essay and maybe America as well."
—Vol. 1 Brooklyn, 2017 Favorites (Nonfiction)

"With a voice that rings clear off the page, Abdurraqib is an accomplished wordsmith, whose reflections on pop culture are intensely personal, political and utterly compelling."
—CBC (Canada)

"Abdurraqib will make you think critically about music and the culture it influences, and his thoughts will stay with you long after you’ve tunneled through all 286 pages of his wonderful book."
Stereogum, Recommended Reading 2017

"Poignant and important. Abdurraqib offers a perspective that connects music, art, and memory, with the political realities of our time."
Esquire, Best Books of 2017

They Can’t Kill Us Until They Kill Us establishes Abdurraqib as a major rock critic — polished and deft and original in a searchingly unpolished way."
—Robert Christgau, Barnes and Noble Review

"Funny, painful, precise, desperate, and loving throughout. Not a day has sounded the same since I read him." 
—Greil Marcus, Village Voice

"Essential, gripping reading."
—Tobias Carroll, Pitchfork

"A much-needed collection for our time. [Abdurraqib] has proven to be one of the most essential voices of his generation.”
—Juan Vidal, NPR

"They Can’t Kill Us Until They Kill Us, which announces a new voice, is a collection of death-defying protest songs for the Black Lives Matter era."
Chicago Tribune, Best books of 2017: Fiction and nonfiction that moved literature forward

"Abdurraqib’s essays, which tackle everything from racism to music to suicide, are necessary reading now more than ever. Challenging and lyrical, his writing delivers compelling observations in bite-sized pieces, allowing you to digest the deeper ramifications of his insights."
Paste, The 20 Best Nonfiction Books of 2017

"It’s a little bit of comfort when you think about it, that with They Can’t Kill Us Until They Kill Us, Abdurraqib has provided us with an essay collection that might help make some small sense of what’s going on. That maybe, hopefully, one day soon we can step back into the light with an understanding of how to be a little better. That the voices that emerged over the last decade helped forge a path towards something better, and that things can be good."
—Vol. 1 Brooklyn, 'Hanif Abdurraqib’s Great American Essay Collection'

"Abdurraqib's poetic sentence makes me see fireworks in a new way. It ingeniously reverses their motion: Instead of tendrils of light exploding outward, overwriting the darkness, these fireworks gather the darkness into themselves. They are like teenagers stuffing their pockets with candy, ravenous for the night. Violent illuminations arriving, out of nowhere, to hoard the darkness. That would be something worth staring at."
New York Times Magazine, Sam Anderson, 'New Sentences' column

"Abdurraqib unites familiar sounds with fresh observations about music and the state of contemporary America. Abdurraqib has a poet’s eye for innovations in form... an attention to small societal details and a penchant for incisive critiques... essential, gripping reading."
Pitchfork, 16 Favorite Music Books of 2017

"Abdurraqib places the reader in front of the performer and commands them to see beyond the music, to glimpse the societal impact of popular performers and indie heroes alike, and how they reflect the culture that bears them."
Pleiades Magazine

"With a poet’s eye for wisdom in strange juxtapositions, Hanif Abdurraqib pens essays about music and pop culture that are about so much more than music and pop culture. Punk fan, hip hop head, pop critic and a black man alive in America– Abdurraqib makes insightful and poetic examinations of racism, politics, police, youth, identity, grief and hope. And it all comes back to the music."
Ian, Browsers Bookshop, Olympia, WA

"Hanif Abdurraqib’s essay collection on the convergence of identity politics, music, sports and culture feels important. There’s a sense that the reader is getting in on the ground floor by recognizing a voice whose significance is only going to grow in the decades to come. Appreciating this book is like being a Radiohead fan before they got famous."
National Post, The Best Books of the Year (2017)

"[They Can’t Kill Us Until They Kill Us​], driven by music and how it both reflects and influences a culture, is a poignant critique that takes the pulse of present-day America. A poet first, Abdurraquib has a magnetic sense of the big picture as well as an ability to lovingly search for meaning... His prose is full of these moments of magic, layered into sharp, careful, and gentle critiques of American culture."
—Peach Picks​/The Public

"It’s hard to imagine a more powerful, resonant, or important young voice in these times than that of Hanif Abdurraqib, whose poetry and essays present penetrating observations and critiques of modern American culture. In his new collection of previously unpublished essays, They Can’t Kill Us Until They Kill Us, Abdurraqib (as he often does) uses music as a cultural totem and delivers a poignant examination of identity, emotion, place, and the quest for justice."
—Brad and Lissa, Politics and Prose Bookstore

"As expansive in scope as it is rich in content... It’s a beautiful, carefully layered book, full of sharp insights, carefully realized emotions and stories told with a gentle voice that grows ever more important in these times.
Michigan Daily

"If They Can’t Kill Us Until They Kill Us was merely a pop-music compendium, it would be one of the most important books released in 2017. But it does and is so much more... Artists like Abdurraqib train us to see the humanity in others, so we might see it wherever we go."
Columbia Daily Tribune

"As much the chronicle of a black man living in contemporary culture, They Can’t Kill Us Until They Kill Us is a book about the heartfelt state of a poet, a man looking outward and inward simultaneously for his direction. Although we are seemingly past the era in publishing where an omnibus edition can truly claim to be complete, this tome stands as a bold statement for a great writer and a complete breath of life from a rare thinker."
New Noise Magazine

"One of the stand-out essay collections of 2017, They Can’t Kill Us Until They Kill Us seamlessly blends together Abdurraqib’s accounts of punk and alternative music, hopelessness on the current political climate, and questions about race and religion. Part memoir, part music journalism, part prose poem, this collection strikes all the right chords on what is happening right now in America."
The Los Angeles Review

"If you think Hanif Abdurraqib’s collection of essays is just a book about music, you are mistaken... This collection is a collection of echoes. It is reflections and refractions, soundwaves and visions that keep coming back, sometimes sweetly and sometimes intensely."

"The spoken word poet’s pieces are deep, uncensored analyses of topics ranging from music to death, from culture to sports, saturated with the weight of his memories and experiences. Each essay is a masterful account of what it means to experience culture and current events in a black body, in a country that so often demands black silence."
The Harvard Crimson

"Abdurraqib uses the common language of music and cultural touchstones to relate the fears facing the world today that we might gain insight, grow, and understand in an era that seems to want anything but."
Heavy, Best New Books of 2017

"When we say this is the stunning turducken of literary nonfiction, we mean it. Love this book so much. Give it to all the people you know, especially the millennial ones."
—Elliott Bay Book Company:
They Can't Kill Us Until They Kill Us Elliott Bay Book Company

"In They Can’t Kill Us Until They Kill Us, Abdurraqib writes facing his people — punk-show scenesters, NBA aficionados, black kids growing up on the East Side of Columbus — and draws the rest of us to the circle’s edge with his discerning eye."
Columbus Dispatch

"As powerful and touching as anything I’ve read this year, and Hanif Abdurraqib has emerged as the Ta-Nehisi Coates of popular culture. Pick any piece from They Can’t Kill Us Until They Kill Us. I promise you – it will sting. Like all great art." 
—James Mann, The Big Takeover

"To say Hanif Abdurraqib writes about the music that’s the soundtrack to our lives is an understatement... Abdurraqib is taking the music many already enjoy and asking us to consider its more profound implications. Readers are asked to investigate the ways in which music shapes and informs our lives.
—Mandy Shunnarah, Pank Magazine

"They Can’t Kill Us Until They Kill Us is like a collection of death-defying protest songs for the Black Lives Matter era. Like Kanye’s ghostly, autotuned chants on the opening track of Chance’s “Coloring Book,” Abdurraqib’s essays say, just to live, 'music is all we got.'"
—Walton Muyumba, Chicago Tribune

"They Can’t Kill Us Until They Kill Us is a study of the persona and the perceived. It is a call for empathy, showing us how possible that is in each essay included. Some provide a harder look at life, but Hanif Abdurraqib is aware of how bad the world is and how much life sucks and doesn’t attempt to sugarcoat any of it. Instead, he chooses to be an optimist, even against his own nature. He leads by example and beckons us to follow."
The Big Smoke

"Hanif Abdurraqib is one of the most unique voices in modern journalism and poetry... They Can’t Kill Us Until They Kill Us is a beautiful meditation on pop culture, race, personal history, and the places where those conversations meet. Abdurraqib sculpts his prose in a conversationally engaging but also comforting tone.

"Hanif Abdurraqib’s They Can’t Kill Us Until They Kill Us is a penetrating and profoundly timely collection of essays. It is music writing at its sharpest, most perceptive, and most urgent... Most remarkable, perhaps, is Abdurraqib’s ability to perceive and define connections between his subjects, himself, and the fractured, complicated culture in which we live."
—Foreword Reviews (starred review)

"Abdurraqib’s essay collection is mesmerizing and deeply perceptive... filled with honesty, providing the reader with the sensation of seeing the world through fresh eyes."
—Publishers Weekly (starred review)

"Poet, essayist, and music critic Abdurraqib (The Crown Ain’t Worth Much) examines contemporary America through the lens of popular culture... Highly recommended."
Library Journal (starred review)

"Abdurraqib writes with uninhibited curiosity and insight about music and its ties to culture and memory, life and death, on levels personal, political, and universal... Abdurraqib’s poignant critiques, a catalog of the current moment and all that preceded it, inspire us to listen with our whole selves."
Booklist (starred review)

“With the depth and versatility of an immensely talented poet and the strong, perceptive wit of a cultural critic, Hanif Abdurraqib shows us his tremendous ability to bend language to his will in this collection of essays. For him, like for many of us, music is an entrance into a larger discussion of our emotions and our collective cultural understanding. Deftly moving from ruminations on Chance the Rapper, Atmosphere, and Future, to Bruce Springsteen, Fall Out Boy, and Johnny Cash, Abdurraqib is able to traverse conversations on black excellence, grief, and hope. This book taught me something fresh about humanity with every turn of the page, and it will stay with me for a long time to come.”
—Matt Keliher, SubText Books, St. Paul, MN

"Abdurraqib’s essays are necessary reading now more than ever, and this collection is the perfect place to begin."
—Paste Magazine,The 10 Most Anticipated Books of November 2017

"They Can’t Kill Us Until They Kill Us is a generous and beautifully written collection of music essays that is truly about so so much more than music. It is my favorite book and I'm very excited to get it into your hands."
—A Room of One's Own Bookstore, Madison, Wisconsin

"They Can’t Kill Us Until They Kill Us, the first essay collection from Hanif Abdurraqib, is a towering work full of insightful observations about everything from the legacy of Nina Simone to the music of Bruce Springsteen. Throughout the book, Abdurraqib juxtaposes the societal with the intimately personal, and the end result is a powerful work about art, society, and the perspective through which its author regards both."
—Electric Literature

"Hanif Abdurraqib's essays are the best kind of writing about music and pop culture: they're deeply personal and thoughtful, an out loud working through of what music and pop culture say about how we move through the world and where we're going."
—Barnes & Noble, Court Street, Brooklyn, NY

"Columbus native Hanif Abdurraqib is an insightful poet and cultural critic who uses music as the starting point for discussing youth, race, friendship, who we love... and Carly Rae Jepsen."
—Cincinnati Magazine

"How can one talk about music without addressing the culture behind it? In They Can’t Kill Us Until They Kill Us, poet, essayist, and cultural critic Hanif Abdurraqib digs deep into our culture and hits upon the heart of contemporary American life. This beautiful book is necessary now, more than ever!"
—Unabridged Bookstore, Chicago, IL

"The Best New Books of November 2017"
—Chicago Review of Books

"They Can’t Kill Us Until They Kill Us is a joyful requiem—emphasis on joyful. Abdurraqib has written a guide for the living as well as a memorial for those we have lost."
—Los Angeles Review of Books

"Moving seamlessly from Fall Out Boy to Nina Simone, from Bruce Springsteen to the death of Mike Brown, Abdurraqib centers this masterful collection of essays not only around music and the way it’s shaped and carried him through life, but the tiny sparks that help us survive.

"They Can’t Kill Us Until They Kill Us by Hanif Abdurraqib is some of the most dynamic writing about music I’ve ever read. The way Abdurraqib ties the artists, concerts, and music culture he is covering into current events can make you care about music you have never even heard."
—Robert Sindelar, Board President, American Booksellers Association (ABA)

"These are essays about music, but also about culture, race, and life in America today. Abdurraqib writes about attending a Bruce Springsteen concert the day after visiting Michael Brown’s grave, what it was like growing up in America in the 1990s, the first time he was thrown on the ground by police officers, and much more."
—Book Riot, 20 Great Essay Collections from 2017

"Maybe the best non-fiction book of 2017. Hanif Abdurraqib’s essay collection is moving, startling, and introduces an important voice in the current cultural landscape. Touching on music, race, pop culture and sooo much more—this collection is a memorable feast. We HIGHLY recommend you take a look."
Volumes Bookcafe, Chicago, IL

"[Hanif Abdurraqib] writes about subjects like Chance the Rapper, Carly Rae Jepsen, and Bruce Springsteen, placing these stars and their songs squarely in the context of America's current narrative of unease. Read this, then listen back—you’re sure to hear something new."
—W Magazine, Books to Read Right Now 

"Music nerds, rejoice! There are few critics alive today that can talk about music and culture with the same level of adoration and encyclopedic knowledge as Hanif Abdurraqib. It should come as no surprise, then, that They Can’t Kill Us Until They Kill Us, his collection of music and culture essays, is ridiculously good. True to form, Abdurraqib will likely give you a whole new level of appreciation for some of your favorite music — so strap in, because fandom has never sounded so good."

"In all of Abdurraqib’s poetic essays, there is the artist, the work, the nation, and himself. The author effortlessly navigates among these many points before ultimately arriving at conclusions that are sometimes hopeful, often sorrowful, and always visceral. Erudite writing from an author struggling to find meaning through music."

"Certain writers can take a pop song or musician as their subject and turn what they write into a stunning evocation of some aspect of society. That’s very much the case with Hanif Abdurraqib, and in this new collection he covers everything from the Columbus punk scene to Chance the Rapper, coming up with stunning observations along the way."
—Vol. 1 Brooklyn

"Abdurraqib examines American pop culture with insight and heart."
Dallas News, Enticing Fall Books

"In They Can't Kill Us Until They Kill Us, the poet, writer, and cultural critic takes seemingly random moments — a Bruce Springsteen concert, PDA at a Carly Rae Jepsen show — and uses them to try and explore some of the most difficult questions about race, violence, and prejudice facing Americans, specifically Americans of color, today."

"Hanif Abdurraqib's music writing possesses a singular, impossible magic—he cracks open the very personal nature of fandom with empathy and skepticism in equal measure."
Jessica Hopper

"Abdurraqib bridges the bravado and bling of praise with the blood and tears of elegy."
—Terrance Hayes


Hanif Abdurraqib author

Hanif Abdurraqib (click for more) is a poet, essayist, and cultural critic from Columbus, Ohio. His most recent book, a New York Times bestseller, is Go Ahead in the Rain: Notes to a Tribe Called Quest (University of Texas Press). His poetry has been published in Muzzle, Vinyl, PEN American, and various other journals. His essays and music criticism have been published in The FADER, Pitchfork, The New Yorker, and The New York Times. His first full length poetry collection, The Crown Ain't Worth Much, was released in June 2016 from Button Poetry. It was named a finalist for the Eric Hoffer Book Prize, and was nominated for a Hurston-Wright Legacy Award. With Big Lucks, he released a limited edition chapbook, Vintage Sadness, in summer 2017. His first collection of essays, They Can't Kill Us Until They Kill Us, was released in winter 2017 by Two Dollar Radio and was named a book of the year by Buzzfeed, Esquire, NPR, Oprah Magazine, Paste, CBC, The Los Angeles Review, Pitchfork, and The Chicago Tribune, among others. He is a Callaloo Creative Writing Fellow, an interviewer at Union Station Magazine, and a poetry editor at Muzzle Magazine. He is a member of the poetry collective Echo Hotel with poet/essayist Eve Ewing.
His next books are A Fortune for Your Disaster, a collection of poetry from Tin House in 2019, and They Don't Dance No' Mo', due out in 2020 by Random House.

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LIST PRICE: $16.99
PAGES: 287
PRINT ISBN: 978-1-937512-65-1
DIGITAL ISBN: 9781937512668
SIZE: 5.5" x 7.5"

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